When I think about the things that I want, there are a lot of things that I could do right now. I mean, there are, of course, things that take time and money and planning and all of that, like my desire to own a big old house or to at least redo large swaths of mine, but there are things that don’t take that much.
I would like a nice vegetable garden next year.
I would like the yard to look better next year, mowed more often and with more flower beds.
I have been wanting to start my own Booktube.
I want to be stronger, lifting some light weights at least, and do some prenatal yoga.
These are things that I can just DO. I don’t need to keep waiting. Yes, I’d like a new camera before trying a Booktube but a couple of months ago I passed on a barely used one for $20!
The thing is that sometimes you have to put the wheels in motion. You have to put the work in. I may not be able to plant until May but I can start planning my gardens. I can start putting money away. There are things I can do now that will help me later, when things are in my grasp.
My mother often worries that I am putting too much pressure on myself and expecting too much of myself. Sometimes I do fall into that trap but I know that I have the ability to do great things and really get things done, and doing those things makes me feel accomplished and happy.
I want to leave you with this thought: For the past week, I have been feeling like a lesser human being. I am angry and I am hurt and I feel like a lot of people think of me as less of a person simply because I am a woman. But I want to remember, and so I want to say, that I am amazing. I am a woman who truly has it all. I have a husband, a house, a baby on the way, a successful career, cats, a loving family, decent looks, great friends, books times a million, and so much more. Every day I do amazing things, just in the ordinary daily rounds. I am strong and I LOVE. That says a lot.