“It’s a little more like the image of a caterpillar enclosing itself in a cocoon in order to go through the metamorphosis to emerge as a butterfly. The caterpillar doesn’t say: ‘Well now. I’m going to climb into this cocoon and come out a butterfly.’ It’s just an inevitable process.” -Ram Dass
I’ve been complaining this week. To you. To everybody. I am tired. I am fog-brained. I cannot get everything done. I feel cornered. I feel guilty. I feel tangled. I feel lost.
I get it. I do. I feel all of those things. But, honestly, I can’t stand myself anymore. I really cannot tolerate it anymore. I cannot tolerate my exhaustion. I cannot tolerate my stupidity. I cannot tolerate my general shit attitude.
And this afternoon I decided that enough was enough.
Right now I am taking a deep breath and focusing on the tasks at hand. I am keeping my head clear by not pressuring myself to deal with everything right this second. I am battling my exhaustion by drinking water and making sure that I get up and move around. I am battling my attitude by readjusting.
Now is the time to get things together, to kick some ass, to get things done. And I am going to. Tomorrow, my post will be about how great my day is and how awesome my life is and how excited I am for a whole new world.
Today, I lay the foundation.