I am running low on sleep again. Saturday night after the going away party, I only slept 5 hours. I tried to take a nap yesterday afternoon but couldn’t fall asleep. Last night I slept about 4.5 hours. Hubby had a hard time sleeping too. While I was laying with my eyes closed tight, telling myself again and again that I was falling asleep, Hubby got up and went out to the living room.
“Are you giving up?” I asked.
Now, today, that seems like a stupid thing to ask. This isn’t some contest with sleep. Sleep and I are not enemies. We’re usually friends. Right now we are just going through a rough patch. The rough patch is not helped by the fact that I think I need a new heater for the bed and it’s been kind of cold. I have to remember to check that when I get home…
I am doing my best today, though. I got up and worked out and got ready. I got some stuff done around the house before I left. I came to work and I have gotten through quite a bit. Am I tired? Yes. Did I not feel well earlier? Also, yes. But I get to leave a half hour early today and I get to go home and rest and just take care of myself and that is something I can really get behind right now.
Tonight I will go to bed at a reasonable time and I will do my best to just let go and sleep, to not worry about whether or not I get enough. It will be fine. Eventually I will feel normal again.