Today has been a strange day. I don’t know where it went. I did get in an hour nap and Mom came to visit for an hour and brought me some lunch. Other than that, though, I don’t feel like I’ve done anything. I picked up the house. I marinaded some chicken that I just put into the oven. I pumped and fed and changed diapers. But the day has slipped away.
When I woke up from my nap, I started to feel the pressure closing in on me. I have so much that I wanted to do this week and I have done so very little of it. The house hasn’t been cleaned and the laundry hasn’t been washed. I have a billion things on my to do list and the day is sliding away so that there is nothing to be done about it. I had good intentions. I was going to do stuff and read. But now I cannot even think about reading. My brain hurts just thinking about all of the stuff I want to do.
Times like these, I have to remind myself that I am doing all that I can and sometimes that is more and sometimes it is less. I have to slow down and do one thing at a time, put my phone down and only check it every half hour or so. I forget that just because I am home doesn’t mean that my day isn’t take up with the care of the baby. Sometimes it is and that’s alright because that is what I am here for.
Whatever it is that you are stressed about, take a deep breath and forgive yourself. That’s what I am trying to do.